Pearl's Story

Well we all know that the last thing my life needs is a commentary, especially if said commentary comes from my brain, but here goes it.

So, I've decided that in order for you to understand any of the rest of this blog you have to know the frame of mind I am in, what makes me breathe each day.  I could tell you all my favorite things, my opinions, what makes me cry tears of joy and of sorrow but it won't make sense at all, until you know this one thing about me....

I am not my own.

My life was bought with a price.  A price that I should have paid, couldn't pay, but should of.  See I'm not normal.  I used to be though.  I used to live a life sold out to myself, my glory and making my name big, making the world know me, because of the things I did to try to make it better, whelp, thats not me any more.  The world didn't buy the lie that I was good enough and after 18 years neither did I.

At this point of desperation, on the inside- because from the outside it looked as though I had it all together,  I knew that I needed a Redeemer, to make my life worth something, because I couldn't, not on my own.  My eyes were opened to the unconditional, unfailingly free love of Jesus Christ and with the knowledge of this love how could I not surrender?

See here was the deal that was set before me: 1. You live life your own way, keep trying to be perfect, and you are guaranteed to fail, and at the end of your life, you will be exactly that a failure that tried really hard not to fail.  or  2. Surrender to a life God's way,  keep trying to be perfect in his power, and you are guaranteed to fail, but at the end of your life Christ has paid for your failures for you and God's sees Christ's righteousness when he looks at you.

My life changed after I gave it to Christ.  I like to think that this is always evident, but sometimes it's not. I'm not perfect but He whom I live for is.  My prayer is that you see Him despite me, He's just too good to miss.